Not Again

So it has been a busy morning!

My doctor phoned me in some valium. Haven't taken any though... I am scared of medicine! But a few hours ago, something weird happened, a feeling of peace came over me. Not sure why, but I feel at peace right now.

Mike... I talked to one of the social workers at the VA hospital and she made me feel positive about the situation. She said that his records show an after care treatment plan for his release. So I was thinking, "They have plans for after he gets better!" Well, I talk to the nurse and she is the typical wishy washy type that she is. Says he is still in the same condition.

What infuriates me is that they do not tell me what he is doing. Like he vomited yesterday and some got in his lungs. NO ONE TOLD ME! Then this morning I know he was waking up fighting so they sedated him with a stronger dose. NO ONE TOLD ME!

Why is it they do not tell me what is happening? Why can they be so ready to tell me I need to contact family one day, but not able to tell me if he is getting better? It pisses me off and I know it has to do with liability. I am not wanting a guarantee... I am wanting hope.

I went to the store to get my valium, and bought a card and a little beanie baby for him. He will wake up and be ok dang it all.... right?