Another Day in Limbo

Another day in limbo. Mike's lungs look TONS better. All of his vitals look amazing....

They have had him off all medication except insulin for over 24 hours now. Still no higher brain function. I wait; I hope. This blog was a journal of this journey. I had always helped to share it with Mike. We would grow stronger, and we could heal. But what happens now?

The looks of the medical staff is the worse. I see pity in their eyes. Doctor's say he will be a vegetable and want to pull the plug. I still feel him though... but is it just a deep seeded hope? Am I being selfish? What am I suppose to do? Say? Feel?

My plans are to wait... the medication he was on can stay in his system for 7 days. Maybe, just maybe, he needs more time. When he is stable enough to move home, whether in a vegetative state or not, I plan on moving him home. If by some miracle of God he does improve, home will be good. But if I am taking him home to die, then at least he is with people that love him.

I cannot help but think of our vows: "For better or worse" and "In sickness and health". I am doing what I need to do because this man I love so much would do the same for me.

At this point, I am not sure if I will continue the blog. But giving up on the blog is like giving up on him.