Another Day, Another Battle

His night last night went well. They got him to 85% oxygen with 90+ saturation. His blood work looked better this morning, and his chest xray was tons better. Yesterday's x-ray was completely cloudy with little distinction between heart mass and lung mass. Today, the right lung is almost clear except the very bottom. Left lung still looks cruddy.

But this afternoon he had his first solo BM! While this sounds great, they had to clean him up so his oxygen this evening is back up to 100% with 88-92 saturation. BOOO! But they did put in a new BM-type catheter that is supposed to stop that from happening again.

I talked to every doctor and resident that went by and actually asked every one of them about a trach. I feel it is important at this point. Finally, the head doctor came in and told me they are bringing in a specialist tomorrow to schedule the trach. Good news as this will solve a lot of issues.

His nurse with 35 years of experience is an angel. We all have angel nurses while in these situations. Mike (I know what a coincidence) is ours. He said that he also works at a sort of halfway house for people in this type of condition. He is convinced Mike will pull through.

Mike is on a rollercoaster... an ARDS rollercoaster. But that rollercoaster is slowly sloping upwards. So he may drop 1 point but he goes up 1.5 points. I realize that when he comes home, we will have a lot of healing to do. He is going to need me strong... stronger than I have ever been. But I relish the opportunity to care for this loving man that has always cared for me.

He cried today...

I had them bring in a radio. Music was playing and I was singing in his ear lightly when no one was around. Come on, I have a voice when I sing that makes cats hit me and dogs howl. But I heard a gasp behind me... the nurse was looking at Mike. Mike was crying....

My Mikie is still there. He is fighting for his life, and I am doing everything I can to fight for him. This battle is not in my hands anymore.... I pray. I pray a lot. God is healing Mike. I honestly feel that God is healing Mikie.

I am tired. Another rollercoaster day. But I am more positive than ever that he will be ok...